Where I belong

And on the final day I die 
I want to hold my head up high 
I want to tell You that I tried 
To live it like a song


Where I belong - Switchfoot




I heard a sweet message at camp once.. About a woman who chose her life's testimony before she lived it out. She decided that she wanted to live for Jesus, and have a passion for Him, and spend every moment loving life for Christ because he sacrificed himself on the cross for her every sin. So she did. She has lived that testimony out to this very day, and has never regretted a moment of it. 


There is always time to reevaluate your life and completely switch lanes into living a life not for yourself. I for one, remember hearing that story and I think it changed my motives. Not just to be a "good Christian" and to never do "bad stuff" but I had a desire planted in me to just live and love and use what I have for God's glory. This desire has grown over time, and I genuinely hope and pray that I'm fulfilling it. I know I have such a long way to go, but that's where the growth part comes in. It's not like I'm doing any of this by my own strength anyways. It's all Jesus. Through Him I'm learning to step back and let things be orchestrated NOT by my hands, and to really truly be patient and continue to pray that he provide for the desires of my heart, but also that it be His will that ultimately comes forth in my life. I'm learning how much give a person really has in them, if they try to just love others for Christ. I'm learning to breathe freely and be still in his peace. I'm learning to trust my creator for the wisdom to just shut up and also the courage for when He nudges me to speak up. I'm learning how to be a prayer warrior, I'm learning how to be humble, I'm learning how to be silent and listen when He speaks. I'm learning how to enter deeper into His word, how to hold it close to my heart, and just how much I should treasure it as the life-giving water that it is. 


There is no end to the list of what can be gained through Christ, and through Christ I will never stop learning.