Tea time thoughts.

My thoughts are increasingly resting on next year. Now, I know I shouldn't be looking so far ahead, as I have things to do in THIS year, and THIS moment, but I think it's human nature to want to have some idea of what lies in front of us. Our plans almost never work out the way we would like them to, but there's such a sense of security in HAVING that plan. The overwhelming need to just know how things will turn out is a feeling that I know I have all the time, but can't STAND. This feeling is us trying to remain in control of our lives, and direct them in the paths which WE believe are the right ones, the paths 'best' for us. Let me tell you, this ain't how it should be. The fact that we have a SOVEREIGN LORD completely nullifies the need to worry about tomorrows. I'm not saying planning is a bad thing, I'm just saying that we shouldn't get so ridiculously attached to our plans, that we shut out the bigger picture. I'm so young still, that it's crazy. What could I possibly worry about, that God hasn't planned for me in the future already? Do I find a boyfriend? Do I go back to Tanzania next year? What program should I go into if I stay? What career path do I want? Blah blah BLAAAHH I tell you! This year I've been working on just straight-up getting closer to my Saviour. He is the way the truth and the LIFE of my soul. Everything else falls into place, and God knowwwwwsssss that I in no way have the skills to make things fall into place on my own. So I leave that part up to him. Holla.