DROPPEDDDDD

I just dropped my accounting course. YAY. Although it means I lose that money. Not yay. How miserable I was compared to how much I was actually getting out of that course was just.. Oh man. So not worth it.

So now I have no excuse to get at LEAST 85% in all my classes. Done deal. And I now have a car. YAY!

PS pray for my mum. She's not well.

Where I belong

And on the final day I die 
I want to hold my head up high 
I want to tell You that I tried 
To live it like a song


Where I belong - Switchfoot




I heard a sweet message at camp once.. About a woman who chose her life's testimony before she lived it out. She decided that she wanted to live for Jesus, and have a passion for Him, and spend every moment loving life for Christ because he sacrificed himself on the cross for her every sin. So she did. She has lived that testimony out to this very day, and has never regretted a moment of it. 


There is always time to reevaluate your life and completely switch lanes into living a life not for yourself. I for one, remember hearing that story and I think it changed my motives. Not just to be a "good Christian" and to never do "bad stuff" but I had a desire planted in me to just live and love and use what I have for God's glory. This desire has grown over time, and I genuinely hope and pray that I'm fulfilling it. I know I have such a long way to go, but that's where the growth part comes in. It's not like I'm doing any of this by my own strength anyways. It's all Jesus. Through Him I'm learning to step back and let things be orchestrated NOT by my hands, and to really truly be patient and continue to pray that he provide for the desires of my heart, but also that it be His will that ultimately comes forth in my life. I'm learning how much give a person really has in them, if they try to just love others for Christ. I'm learning to breathe freely and be still in his peace. I'm learning to trust my creator for the wisdom to just shut up and also the courage for when He nudges me to speak up. I'm learning how to be a prayer warrior, I'm learning how to be humble, I'm learning how to be silent and listen when He speaks. I'm learning how to enter deeper into His word, how to hold it close to my heart, and just how much I should treasure it as the life-giving water that it is. 


There is no end to the list of what can be gained through Christ, and through Christ I will never stop learning.

Tragic tale, indeed.

"Once upon a time there was Hosé. You know Hosé.......Hydraulic Hosé, he has a little brother named Fuel Hosé and a wimpy second cousin named Garden Hosé. Anyway HH and I were wrestling and he got all bent out of shape when I was twisting his scrawny, oily neck with the crescent wrench. Well, he didn't like that at all and went all ballistic on me and smashed me in the cheek with the wrench. I thought I was helping him out but nnnoooooo he didn't appreciate it at all. The End."

For those of you who aren't facebook friends with my father (Or just friends with him period)... You're missing out on life. I read the above story, which he wrote as a comment on the picture of him with a black eye. This is indeed the tragic tale of how he received said black eye. And it's hilarious. I love you dad! 

Ups n' downs?

I don't know about stuff sometimes.

I'm never vague, ever.

I get turkey dinner tomorrow! I also got it last night.

I really love going to church. It's a gooood feelin'.

I feel as though I'm being tested in some areas of my life. But that's normal, I suppose. It's still frustrating though.

Sigh.

My cold just ain't going away.

Stupid sniffles, anyways.

One more sigh, then I'm done.










... Sigh.

Sup new colours.

... New year, new colours? Yessir!

.. Althought not a new year.. TECHNICALLY speaking... S'all good, yo.

God answers prayer.

God does have that impeccable timing thing down pat, doesn't he? So. Here I was, all worried about next year, and how am I EVER going to sort out what to do? I really didn't want to leave school after my first year, but I committed (both to Pamoja AND myself) that I would go back to help with the Maasai Opera in TZ next year. Major dilemma! But as I visited with Jeremy on Sunday (YAY for seeing the En-kata choir as they were in Victoria!!) I mentioned this to him. In response, he told me not to think about leaving after my first year! And they were going to be writing the script all of next year anyways, so they wouldn't even NEED me yet. 


.. Oh, hey there relief. I was wondering when you'd show up.


Isn't that just SWEET?! I was like.. Huh. That completely gets rid of every anxious feeling I've been having about next year. Life is gooooood! 


Also about Sunday:


I visited with the terrific Hayden and Elaine Waring!! They have an awesome loft apartment in Victoria, and are just.. Well. They're cool. I like them alot. And the choir was GREAT in their performance at the church. Such a passionate group of people, spreading God's vision for their community! It was so exciting to see them in Canada!! I also got to see Lisa, though very briefly... But Victoria isn't so far away. I can definitely visit again! Rebecca and I of course had a fun drive, because... We're fun people? YEAH I'll go with that! We've also decided to go glow-in-the-dark ice skating sometime. THAT will be rad. 


Anyways. Mini-update on cool stuff. Have a goodnight everyone! I have a mid-term tomorrow. Ew.

Tea time thoughts.

My thoughts are increasingly resting on next year. Now, I know I shouldn't be looking so far ahead, as I have things to do in THIS year, and THIS moment, but I think it's human nature to want to have some idea of what lies in front of us. Our plans almost never work out the way we would like them to, but there's such a sense of security in HAVING that plan. The overwhelming need to just know how things will turn out is a feeling that I know I have all the time, but can't STAND. This feeling is us trying to remain in control of our lives, and direct them in the paths which WE believe are the right ones, the paths 'best' for us. Let me tell you, this ain't how it should be. The fact that we have a SOVEREIGN LORD completely nullifies the need to worry about tomorrows. I'm not saying planning is a bad thing, I'm just saying that we shouldn't get so ridiculously attached to our plans, that we shut out the bigger picture. I'm so young still, that it's crazy. What could I possibly worry about, that God hasn't planned for me in the future already? Do I find a boyfriend? Do I go back to Tanzania next year? What program should I go into if I stay? What career path do I want? Blah blah BLAAAHH I tell you! This year I've been working on just straight-up getting closer to my Saviour. He is the way the truth and the LIFE of my soul. Everything else falls into place, and God knowwwwwsssss that I in no way have the skills to make things fall into place on my own. So I leave that part up to him. Holla.