It's dark out at 5:16.

VENTING TIIIME!


Okay, not really venting. But right now I'm so super duper frustrated with myself that it's ridiculous. I talked to an education advisor today, and left feeling pretty good. Until I got to thinking.... I still don't know what I'm doing. That's not such a problem in itself, but I would really really like a long-term goal to work towards. Like becoming a doctor for instance. Seriously, I want to be a doctor so badly. But but BUT the road is long and the sacrifices are many. Do I want to give up the next thirteen years of my life so I can be settled in with a career from then until death do us part? Uhhh. I don't know. I really don't. And I can't just float around in university, without a purpose. I need to either get in a program, know what I want, or.. Quit for a while. And I don't want to quit school. So should I just give 'er and get my BSc in Biology? Orrrrrr do I actually want to go a completely separate route and get my BSc in Kinesiology? Physiotherapist, anyone? SURE. At this moment I'm leaning towards Biology. Then comes the whole "getting into med school" business. That's a piece of work in itself. They look at your marks from first year on, as well as whatever extracurricular activities you get involved in.. Because Biology majors have so much spare time on their hands? I would definitely have to do that degree in five years instead of four. Plus the MCAT (Medical College Admission Test) that needs doing after your degree, which you have to do quite well on to get into med school... So then you do your four years of med school madness, and get to become a resident. Yayyy! Let's work 80 hour weeks and still have a social life! Oh waaaaait, that's not right, is it?


I seem bitter about this. I'm really not, I'm just being realistic. By next year I need to decide if I'm gonna just go for it, or do something else, or wait. Because decisions need to be made! Tough ones, suuuuure. But I'm not the only one to have gone through it. And I know that if I make it into med school and come out alive on the other side, I won't regret a minute of it. Then I can go to Africa with Doctors Without Borders! Yeah! Sweet.


Right now I should focus on this year. I have exams to do (thaaaat I should be studying for) and a new semester to go into. It's the time for improving studying habits! I will do better next semester than I did this time around. Above 90 or bust. Hopefully. Keep me accountable, people!


In more exciting, less stressful news... I'm going home on Saturday! Wheeee! That means going DIRTBIKING! And seeing my faaaaam jam (minus my dear brother.) And going to North Beaaaaaach, and also probably working with my dad. Interesting.. And eating delicious FOOD! Oh my word, I won't be eating sandwiches and crackers every day for two whole weeks. That is unbelievable. Of course, I will also be sitting in the basement at the Zimmerman's house: drinking tea, playing video games, sitting around. Sigh. Bringin' back the good ol' times. So stoked!


But for now, I study. Or.. iStudy. Hah. "There's an app for that!"


Seriously though. Home. Countdown, suckaaaaaaszszzszz.